It seems like this weekend ran away. It's beginning to feel like that a lot now..time in general is just flying by much quicker than I thought it would. I was afraid that, this being my final semester, time would screech to a halt.
I sound like a broken record, but I just gotta say one more thing on my whole "fear of the future kick." I figured it out today when I was discussing it with my best friend Matt who I seldom get to see. It's just the whole internship thing I'm worried about...come to think of it the same thing happened to me in print journalism...I was mortified...that is, until I found one. I think once I secure that internship and I know it's in the bag I'll worry less about it, the future I mean. What happens after that is up to me, and it shouldn't be frightening, it should be exciting. All I have to do is take some action, maybe see if I can get a Rogers internship close by rather than traveling all that way to 680. Something, I just gotta do SOMETHING. I just need to alleviate the uncertainty.
But anyway! Enough about that shit...I feel pretty damn good about the rest of this semester. The schedule is a lot more trying than last semester's, we're putting in much longer hours, but shit I feel like I'm doing something...I won't falter man...I can't let it happen! I'm going for some awards. I don't even wanna go to my graduation but I still wanna try to at least graduate with honours. Why? Just for the sole reason that I actually have a fighting chance of pulling it off this time around. That never happens! I mean, it's no sweat if I don't but it would be damn cool. "Oh yes, I graduated alright...with HONOURS biatch!"
I feel like my creative juices have been flowing a little bit better than usual these past few days, and it's kinda been a growing trend throughout the past few weeks. I'm excited for the summer, though it's a still a bit far off...and I know that I'm gonna have to be busting my ass looking for internships or volunteer work and perhaps even some entry-level jobs, but I really wanna record another CD!! I want to make more music, I want to see my friends, spend quality time with my beautiful girlfriend, I want to travel. Excitement is the key here...think of the good things that are up ahead..not the bad. As long as I'm pushing myself, trying to get in to the business, putting in my work and burning the midnight oil...on my off-time I can do whatever the fuck I want. Excitement.
Whatever, I said I'd stop talking about this. I think I'm gonna erase that little mural of mine that I posted a picture of a few posts ago. The one that says "Life begins in...
Okay...no more complaining/breaking down/breaking through about the future in my blog to all you poor, bored readers(all three of you =P).
Gotta admit though...getting this shit off my chest and outta my mind...it feels damn good.
It's approaching 2AM and I've got a kinda early morning. I am unfazed. Far out.
Love, friendship, happiness and cookies to you all,
Joeyboy
Life is the new everything.
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