Fall down, rise up...again

So I'm averaging like two or three posts every month...ehh, still much better than what I used to do. There will be more time to update in the summer but at that point I'll also hopefully be updating my music blog more often because the summer is the time for writing and recording.

So today was a crazy day at school. Things were calm and then got really hectic, really fast. I'm gonna be working on stuff all weekend, and I'm starting to feel the pressure again. I was also starting to fret all over again and get those anxiety attacks and yes "fear of the future" which I might has well have named this blog because that's all I've been talking about even though I SAID that I would STOP!!!!!

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But hey...it all goes back to the title of one of my last blog entry: "Fall down, rise up." I thought nothing of it when I first typed it out because usually I just type the first thing that comes to mind. But today, it felt like another one of those fluctuations, another one of those mood swings, like: "OHHMIGOD I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT..OHH..oh....ohhhh...okay never mind I'm fine." And I think that's gonna happen a lot, even though I hate to admit it. I think I NEED that, I think we all do at some point.

In short I started to worry again but then as the day progressed I let my mind ease up, mentally prepared myself for the days to come, vented to my girlfriend (which always seems to help). There's just been a lot of talk about journalism being a dying industry...I just have to believe that I'm skilled enough to be able to jump ship quickly if the S.S. Broadcast News Media goes down...and I think I am skilled enough man, I really do. And if not, I'm a quick learner... so fuck it.

It's gonna be tough keeping a level head but shit, I'm gonna have to just try my hardest to do just that. And like I've said before, it doesn't hurt to come here once in a while and vent it through typing to you guys...my three loyal readers, haha. Naw, I really don't know how many people read this but in the end I guess it's just as much for my sake to get it out there.

But I'm done getting it out there for tonight. Come back in the next few weeks...hopefully I'll be talking about something other than school and my FUUUTUUUREEE!! 'Cause let's face it, that shit is boring anyway, haha.

Over and out folks,
Joeypants